Having trouble saying ‘no’ again…

Inspired by a friend who was giving too much of his time to his church “job” yet ran out of time for God, I wrote this…

I’m highly valuable
That’s why I’m worthless

Seems like my life is such a mess
Everywhere I turn,
They expect a yes
Arms split
Pulled in all ways
How can I give my best
To the One who gives me everything?
To the One who gave His everything?

Lord, help me say no
So I can say Yes

 

Thankfully, he’s got that all balanced out now and the Lord is faithful! He and his wife have welcomed a baby into the world!

 

Homeschooled, hypothetically

“Mom,  what does it mean-

hypothetical?”

“Well,

it’s just an educated guess.”
UGH-distraction-
here’s jelly on the couch,
what a mess!
one learns his math,
the other jumps, spins & crashes
i wipe nose, tears and jelly
and sneak me time in the dashes
Oh, I pray to see the day when
sticky jelly on the couch
will cause me to jump and spin
instead of making me a grouch…
let me hold a few more sips- and moments
with strong caffeine and pen
just for me
back to true blessings and a hypothetical reality-
“MOMMMMM– will you come help me with this problem, please!!!!”

Truffled Life

This past weekend, I attended the Oregon Truffle Festival  (the underground fungus, not the chocolate) with my camera in hand for four days of fun work, new friends, and forest foraging. A fellow guest I met while shooting Friday night’s  One Big Table awards dinner said, “I bet not all your jobs are this much fun.” “Actually,” I replied, ” they are!” Because of our involvement in the food & wine industry, I have fabulous times, memories, and countless friends all met around the table with a toast. That’s where I thrive shooting. Give me a plate of gourmet and a glass of glee, and my Canon 7D sings!  If you’ve been following my blog at all, you know I’m a devoted wife and homeschool mom, and that is my primary “job.” And, through Luis’ amazing career, I’m blessed not to “need” to work… but something inside me lately has been so clearly showing me that I have to work. If I don’t shoot, write, and create…move,  I feel as if I’m dying. Standing still. Stuck. And, I hate that feeling. I thrive on momentum. And, this momentum seems to be gaining supernatural speed since I’ve clearly identified that who I am must write (thanks, Jeff) must create,  must share… and must toast

Something in me experienced a paradigm shift before this weekend’s event. I was there to shoot, sure. Write for an awesome new publication- Latin Connoisseur- cool! Learn about scent training our truffle dogs, the lagotto romagnolo. But mostly, I was there to connect. Make friends. Experience authentic community around a passion (cuisine) and a table. And this event if truly where my greatest passions merge. Food, friends, wine, dogs- and the pursuit of the undiscovered. The food was art: full of the sensuous seasonal Oregon truffles from morning’s hot cocoa and eggs to evening’s main course and desserts- and everything in between. Amazing chefs including Josh Feathers from BlackBerry Farm and winemakers (like friends at Big Table Farm) gathered to share their art as I created some more. Food, photography and faith, and of course,  our truffle dogs were the topics of my conversation.

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I discovered something with each artful bite. In the crafting of the masterpiece on a plate lies the difference between gourmet and glutton. It truly takes a team of committed and passionate people, and a few miracles, to feed the masses with style.  I was blessed to glean from renowned authors, and now good friends, Molly O’Neill and Kathy Gunst. I tasted everything from Merry’s award winning parsnip and celery root soup with shaved oregon white truffles and pomegranate arils to Chef Josh’s two-day roasted white truffle beef short rib with white truffle purée, and finished nothing.  Yet,  savored everything. People, places, experiences, and tastes.

Stay tuned for interviews with some of the amazing people I met this week, recipes (tomorrow will be wild mushroom and truffle risotto after our dinner tonight) and more photos. If you were there- or wish you were- post a comment below!

Business cards, phone numbers, and emails exchanged. Friendships formed. Pass the seconds, please.

Cheers!

Forests, Foraging and New Friends…

“The most learned men have been questioned as to the nature of this tuber, and after two thousand years of argument and discussion their answer is the same as it was on the first day: we do not know. The truffles themselves have been interrogated, and have answered simply: eat us and praise the Lord.” Alexandre Dumas (1802-1870)

Molly O’Neill, one of the greatest food writers imaginable, shared that quote on her blog today. Tomorrow, I’ll be working with her and folks from the Oregon Truffle Fest and renowned truffle-dog trainers from Blackberry Farms here in Eugene, Oregon learning about truffle dog training while I capture some authentic moments, and hopefully a few delicious bites, from the annual Truffle Recipe Contest.

Food and wine events fill the soul with inspiration, the hunger with unique flavors, and the iphone with new contact information with friends made around the table. I was fortunate to enjoy a studio tour and simple lunch today with a new friend, and amazing photographer, in Portland- John Valls. The friendships, food and photo fun will continue throughout the weekend- so be sure to stick around!

The only thing missing is my love, Luis. I’ll raise a glass for us both :)

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So I Stand at the Door ~ a poem by Sam Shoemaker

I heard this in 2005, read by a friend and Pastor, Jud Wilhite,  when I was new and being awakened to the amazing things of Jesus (even after growing up in a “church”)

See if these words sing for your heart as they have for mine….(I shot this photo in St. Emilion, France)

I Stand by the Door

I stand by the door.
I neither go too far in, nor stay too far out,
The door is the most important door in the world-
It is the door through which people walk when they find God.
There’s no use my going way inside, and staying there,
When so many are still outside and they, as much as I,
Crave to know where the door is.
And all that so many ever find
Is only the wall where a door ought to be.
They creep along the wall like blind people,
With outstretched, groping hands.
Feeling for a door, knowing there must be a door,
Yet they never find it …
So I stand by the door.

The most tremendous thing in the world
Is for people to find that door–the door to God.
The most important thing any person can do
Is to take hold of one of those blind, groping hands,
And put it on the latch–the latch that only clicks
And opens to the person’s own touch.
People die outside that door, as starving beggars die
On cold nights in cruel cities in the dead of winter—
Die for want of what is within their grasp.
They live, on the other side of it–live because they have not found it.
Nothing else matters compared to helping them find it,
And open it, and walk in, and find Him …
So I stand by the door.

Go in, great saints, go all the way in–
Go way down into the cavernous cellars,
And way up into the spacious attics–
It is a vast roomy house, this house where God is.
Go into the deepest of hidden casements,
Of withdrawal, of silence, of sainthood.
Some must inhabit those inner rooms.
And know the depths and heights of God,
And call outside to the rest of us how wonderful it is.
Sometimes I take a deeper look in,
Sometimes venture in a little farther;
But my place seems closer to the opening …
So I stand by the door.

There is another reason why I stand there.
Some people get part way in and become afraid
Lest God and the zeal of His house devour them
For God is so very great, and asks all of us.
And these people feel a cosmic claustrophobia,
And want to get out. “Let me out!” they cry,
And the people way inside only terrify them more.
Somebody must be by the door to tell them that they are spoiled
For the old life, they have seen too much:
Once taste God, and nothing but God will do any more.
Somebody must be watching for the frightened
Who seek to sneak out just where they came in,
To tell them how much better it is inside.
The people too far in do not see how near these are
To leaving–preoccupied with the wonder of it all.
Somebody must watch for those who have entered the door,
But would like to run away. So for them, too,
I stand by the door.

I admire the people who go way in.
But I wish they would not forget how it was
Before they got in. Then they would be able to help
The people who have not yet even found the door,

Or the people who want to run away again from God,

You can go in too deeply, and stay in too long,
And forget the people outside the door.
As for me, I shall take my old accustomed place,
Near enough to God to hear Him, and know He is there,
But not so far from people as not to hear them,
And remember they are there, too.
Where? Outside the door–
Thousands of them, millions of them.
But–more important for me–
One of them, two of them, ten of them,
Whose hands I am intended to put on the latch.
So I shall stand by the door and wait
For those who seek it.
“I had rather be a door-keeper …”
So I stand by the door.

Sam Shoemaker, founder of Faith At Work at Calvary Episcopal

Today, I found it re-posted at this blog. Thank you!

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Are you feeling the Momentum this Year?

One of my favorite music videos ever…The Rend Collective Experiment

Enjoy! Lyrics below…

I wanna soar with You
Upon wings like eagles
But I’ll crawl with You too
When the dark and lonely questions come

I wanna stand true
No matter what’s new or comes through
I can’t stand still
Whatever hits I’ll keep making movements to You

I’m running fast and free to You
‘Cos You are the movement and fight in me
I’m running fast and free to You
‘Cos You are my home where I wanna be
Come move in me
Where I wanna be, come move in me

I wanna float with you
The currents driving me
But I’ll paddle hard too
When the waves and rapids overcome

I wanna stand firm
When my mind’s weak and my emotions squirm
I must stand true
Whatever hits I’ll keep making movements to You

I won’t walk away, won’t walk away

Calling all Poets…

disclamier:

read through, then share your treasures in the comments!

the world needs more poets
just for this time

words bursting with whimsy,
questions, intrigue and rhyme

prose to inspire
lyrics singing out
bringing light to the lurking
shadows of doubt

I’m certain they’re out there-
words straight from the heart
wondering where to get a break?
play their part!

perhaps they are yours
these words full of play
safely covered in your ragged journal
waiting for that someday

WorDS:
COME ALIVE!
as butterflies in spring

May this be the year
all our pages grow wings
while unlocking new life
on hidden, treasured things